20061202
starSfish
Hey ppl!!!
just wanna share this with you.
Nov, has been quite a month for me, venturing into the extremes of emotions, struggling with being immobilized, struggling with exams, and having the attachment in Germany approved. for now, I can't really see how they could be related, but I know that in the larger picture, they are.
As I reflected on this month, I recalled the "$80 bike story" I shared in Aug. and realized a very interesting pt.
[what's a bike designed for? it's been designed to help ppl get around over all sorts of terrains, distances, at all sorts of speeds, regardless of the weather... ... as Christians we are said to be vessels for God.if I were a bike and God was the rider, would God like to ride me around?while riding, would God be able to trust me?or would I be a burden to him, that He'll be praying that I don't breakdown?
am I going to be the type of bikes that God would ride to all sorts of places speeding downhill comfortably? or would he only entrust me with small mundane tasks?]
did you know that I find it a lot easier to make decisions while cycling on the $80 than my other bike?
for example, when I'm on top of a hill, I look down and see a really steep and challenging route ahead. on my better bike, I'd hold my breath, anticipate & imagine the adreline rush, hold my guts and then hesitate... but when I'm on the $80 bike. the decision's made even b4 I reach the top. I definitely won't try the slope, cos the bike might just fall apart, a car in front of me might just jam his brakes etc... in fact I won't even think of bringing the bike up there.
notice the difference. on the good bike, my concern is of myself, am I going to have enough guts to go thru? on the $80 bike, the concern is on the bike.
often in our lowest moments, confused & frustrated, we wonder how we actually ended up there. how did I actually get this genetic disorder? how?!!??! What!!!? why!?!?? its not fair!!! the fact that we can feel down means we've been up b4, somewhere better, somewhere higher. so how did we end up in the ditch or valley? well, God wanted to bring us from a high pt to another. [Ps 84:7]
the fact that we're down in the valley means that the rider feels that this bike is able to take all the stress, have the appropriate traction, reaction, etc. it means the rider TRUSTS the bike! We're down there, becos God TRUSTS that us!!! [1Cor10:13]
seeing the problem from this point of view, makes the object of focus rather different doesn't it?
Its not about me,
As if You should things my way,
You alone are God and I surrender,
To Your ways
---YXX---
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